Creating a List and Checking it Twice

People who have influenced me

                1. My fiancée Brittany

                2. My dad

                3. My mom

                4. My aunt Tammie

                5. Mr. Pham

                6. Mr. Lynch

                7. Mrs. Slagle (Not being a suck-up because you have influenced me to become a better writer)

                8. My aunt Felicia

                9. My grandma Brenda

                10. My grandpa Larry

Places that make me happy

1. My room

                2. My bed

                3. In Brittany’s arms

                4. Driving a car

                5. Hanging with my friend Meme

                6. Hanging with my friends in my room

                7. Laying on my pillow

Places I would like to go

                1. The Bermuda Triangle

                2. Las Vegas

                3. Paris, France

                4. London

                5. Florida

                6. Texas

                7. Russia

                8. China

                9. Japan

                10. California

Things in people that I like

                1. Personality’s

                2. Smile

                3. Sensitivity

                4. Humorous

                5. Relaxed (But not lazy)

                6. Risk takers

Things in people that I dislike

                1. Non-funny

                2. Stubborn

                3. Lazy

                4. Bad sarcasm

                5. Money (how money over rules their decisions for everything)

                6. Non-Caring

Things that worry me

                1. Well-being of Nikki (My dad’s girlfriend)

                2. Death of a loved one

                3. Not being able to find a job

                4. Well-being of my aunt Tammie

                5. Diseases/Viruses that are out there

                6. Car Wrecks

Things I would like to know how to do

                1. Fix my hair better

                2. Drive a motor cycle

                3. Build a doghouse

                4. Build a small storage shed

                5. Paint better

                6. Weld

Things that have moved me

                1. My dad

                2. My mom

                3. My fiancée Brittany

                4. Nikki (My dad’s girlfriend)

                5. Funeral of my mother

                6. Romantic Books

                7. Romantic/Action Movies

Ideas that intrigue me

                1. Aliens might be real

                2. The Bermuda Triangle is just a myth

3. The fact that the government has saved every disease ever known to man and has every strain of it and the vaccine for it.

                4. That pixies could be real along with any type of Fey

                5. That books are better than movies

                6. Life is like a box of chocolates, you never know what you’re going to get.

My personal favorites

                1. Julie Kagawa Books

                2. James Patterson Books

                3. Sleeping

                4. Snowy Days

                5. Rainy Days (especially with thunder and lightning)

                6. Painting Projects

                7. Building things

                8. Working on Cars

                9. Cleaning House

                10. Spending time with my friends

Gone but Never Forgotten - April 19

In twenty years from now there are many things I want to remember but specifically there are twenty of them:

1.        Sometimes it’s best to remember to just slow down and smell the roses because they might not ever be there again.

2.        To remember the good things that has happened to me to shape me into the person that I am today.

3.        That sometimes it’s always best to slow down and listen to what people are actually saying and not what they are asking.

4.        To remember the advice my grandpa and my grandma have gave me over the past few years.

5.        The good times that I have had with all my friends, no matter if the friends are new or very close to me.

6.        The good times that I have had in art class, because within those moments I always had a good laugh and smile.

7.        To take my free time to spend it with my loved ones and not keep cooped up in my room all the time.

8.        To remember to relax and enjoy the little things in life opposed to freaking out over the bigger picture it’s brought into my view.

9.        To remember how much fun I had at prom.

10.    To remember to drive safely because you never know when a cop will be nearby.

11.    All the memories I made during my school years with my friends.

12.    To possibly think before I speak.

13.    Not everyone can be trusted, so don’t pour everything you got into it.

14.    To remember not to spread myself so thin over so many tasks.

15.    To remember all my friends I have made and lost over the past few years.

16.   All the laughs I’ve shared no matter it are with teachers, peers, or even my friends.

17.    To look back on the times I’ve had here at school.

18.    To remember the cool scholarships I’ve applied for.

Never Say Good-Bye

This is the hardest thing ive ever done. . .
I would have to honestly say the hardest goodbye I have ever had to say, was for my mother when she passed away. That was the hardest goodbye for me because when my mother passed away I was tore up at the thought of it, I didn’t even want to say goodbye I couldn’t even look at her very much. It was a hardest moment in my life. It was truly hard to actually look at her and say goodbye because I never thought for as young as I was I didn’t think I could actually look at her and say goodbye. It hurt me so bad, tore my heart in half, even till this day I am tore up about it. I wish I could go back in time and possibly try to change the outcome of what happened that night. Whenever I said goodbye to her I was strong or so I thought anyway. Even though when I looked at her lifeless body it just made me want to burst into tears and run away. I thought I could be strong when I came into the room she was in, trying to take in the things going on around me. For there was silence a lot of it, even my breathing calmed to a minimum. Looking around I finally caught my breath realizing I hadn’t breathed a breath in a couple minutes. When I finally found my strength I looked up at her and said “Mom I am going to miss you, I’m sorry I wasn’t always the best daughter, I wish you could come back to me so I can make it up to you I don’t want to say goodbye to you because no other mother could replace you. I love you mom and I will always miss you. See you soon.” I started to choke on my words as I had spoken them while I had a few tears go down my cheek, I knew things would get better with time, but only time could tell. My reasons for saying this sad goodbye was because the only mother I have ever had passed away, it’s still hard at times to come to the harsh reality of the fact that “she is gone and never coming back.” It’s just hard to deal with sometimes. Even though this happened three years ago, it’s hard to move past such an abrupt goodbye like that, but I am mostly moved on from it. Sometimes it hard to look at pictures because all I can see is her laughing with me, talking to m and then telling me to get my dad not five minutes before she passed away. It’s a hard thing to deal with anymore, but so far I have made it through everything. There will always be times when I wish I could go back and change how I said the goodbye to her, to somehow make it better, make it to where she hears it. I believe though on that day she heard me loud and clear.

In Other Words

1.       "Life is messy. Love is messier." – Catch and Release

2.       “Without music, life would be a mistake.” ― Friedrich Nietzsche 

3.       “It is better to be hated for what you are than to be loved for what you are not.”  ― Andre Gide

4.       “No one can make you feel inferior without your consent.” ―  Eleanor Roosevelt

5.       “Knowing yourself is the beginning of all wisdom.” ― Aristotle

6.       “Strange as it may seem, I still hope for the best, even though the best, like an interesting piece of mail, so rarely arrives, and even when it does it can be lost so easily.” ― Lemony Snicket

7.       “Have no fear of perfection - you'll never reach it.” ―  Salvador Dali 

8.       “A room without books is like a body without a soul.” ― Marcus Tullius Cicero
9.       “Be yourself; everyone else is already taken.”―Oscar Wilde

10.    “This life is what you make it. No matter what, you're going to mess up sometimes, it's a universal truth. But the good part is you get to decide how you're going to mess it up. Girls will be your friends - they'll act like it anyway. But just remember, some come, some go. The ones that stay with you through everything - they're your true best friends. Don't let go of them. Also remember, sisters make the best friends in the world. As for lovers, well, they'll come and go too. And baby, I hate to say it, most of them - actually pretty much all of them are going to break your heart, but you can't give up because if you give up, you'll never find your soul mate. You'll never find that half who makes you whole and that goes for everything. Just because you fail once, doesn't mean you're gonna fail at everything. Keep trying, hold on, and always, always, always believe in yourself, because if you don't, then who will, sweetie? So keep your head high, keep your chin up, and most importantly, keep smiling, because life's a beautiful thing and there's so much to smile about.”  ― Marilyn Monroe

Synetics

1.       Which is smarter? A clock or a calendar?

a.       A clock is smarter because it can tell you the time of the day passing by. It helps you keep on time to your appointments each and every day. So there is no need to plan ahead when it’s easier to take it one day at a time.

2.       Which is easier to teach? A question or an answer?

a.       An answer is easier to teach because there are only so many answers to one question and if you do not know the different sides to those questions how can you, yourself find an answer.

3.       Which is like a contest? A cloud or a sunset?

a.       A sunset is more like a contest because it sets at different times each evening. It always seems to get more beautiful each time you watch it. Were as a cloud is just a white fluff-ball, a sunset is an arrangement of colors from pinks, to yellows, to reds, even sometimes purple.

4.       Which is more fearful? New or old?

a.       Old is something to be more fearful over because when something is old to you there is those long lasting memories that you have kept a secret for many years and how you need to figure out how to keep those old secrets hidden deep within the old object, memory, outfit hidden.

5.       Which is more difficult? A dream or a nightmare?

a.       A dream is more difficult because if it is a good one you will want to keep it going even after you wake up. You will try to go back to sleep and bring that dream back, but in the end we find it most difficult because the dream was just a dream and can probably never become a reality. Were as a nightmare can become reality with only a blink of an eye.

6.       Which is braver? An hour or a year?

a.       A year is braver than an hour because you can do many things within a year that you can’t seem to do within an hour. You can travel the world on a year; you can also take a vacation. Were as in an hour you cannot do very much for anything.

7.       Which is easier to close? A road or a map?

a.       A map is easier to close because sometimes it’s easier to go with the flow opposed to blocking off one of the many pathways through life. No matter where the road may lead it’s always easier to close a map and just go were your mind and body takes you.

8.       Which is more suspenseful? Rain or snow?

a.       Rain is more suspenseful because there is so much you can do and have fun with it while there is a thunder storm opposed to a snow storm. While it’s raining you can do so many things such as read a good book and let the cool rainy air float in through your bedroom window, while you listen to calm music and just chill.

9.       Which has less charm? A signature or an autograph?

a.       A signature has less charm because no one really cares for a signature anymore, most people would rather have an autograph that they could cherish and hold dear to them for the rest of their lives. Whereas a signature might be one of a kind, and easier to get, it’s a lot less cherished when it comes to having to sign everything with your signature. After your first signature on something it becomes pointless.

10.   Which is happier? Music or art?

a.       Art is happier because you can express yourself more freely, no matter it be on paper or a canvas. Sometimes it’s better to express yourself freely on paper than with an instrument or vocal talents. When you express yourself through art other people get to see it and see what your feeling or going through. You also get to make beautiful artwork in the process.

Unfinished Sentences

1. I usually worry about…my friends whenever I can’t really talk to them because I try to keep in contact with my friends when I am away to make sure they are ok. I usually have a bad feeling something is wrong and that I need to check up on them. So I try to keep in contact with them to check up and see how they have been.

2. I feel angry when…the people around me don’t understand what I am saying. Sometimes it’s hard for me to explain myself and it really makes me mad when no one understands me.

3. I’m moody when…I get woke up really early. I do not like getting woke up early in the morning by someone else besides me. So when someone else wakes me up I am usually really moody and don’t want to be bothered.

4. I’m happiest when…it’s raining outside because when it rains my mood always seems to brighten. I can be around some of the worst people and the moment it starts raining I will be at my happiest.

5. I feel confident when…I know something no one else does because it makes me feel like I have some kind of better thought process over them. Then I am always nice enough to go back and explain it to them, makes me happy to be able to help out another person.

6. I feel frustrated when…my sister (L.M.) bothers me over every little thing there is. It frustrates me because they are things she can do herself without someone’s help but she always has to make someone else do it.

7. I feel depressed when…I am not around my fiancé because being without her is very hard for me to handle. We have always been around each other, there are times when we have to go places for a while and not see each other but it’s fine to me. After the first night though I get really depressed and want her to come back so I have someone to talk to.

8. I am comfortable when…I wear my batman pants and shirt. It makes me feel safe and secure to know I look sexy in my batman clothes. My batman clothes are always so warm and comfortable that it’s hard to take them off after a good night’s sleep in them.

9. I feel nervous when…I go to a doctor’s appointment. It doesn’t matter what kind of appointment, I just always get really nervous, kind of like they are going to tell me I have a rare disease and can only live for so long. I’ve always been nervous on hearing that.

10. I feel sentimental when…I am wearing some kind of jewelry that my fiancé gave me because I know it means a lot to her for me to wear them. So I try to wear them all the time to make her and myself happy. Because when I wear them I feel happy and feel like she is there with me at all those times.

 

Metaphorical Definitions

1.       Love is a warm puppy.

2.       Hate is a black cat.

3.       Peace is a night sky.

4.       Loyalty is a cup of hot chocolate.

5.       Courage is a car without headlights.

6.       Idea is a new creative touch.

7.       Trust is a team effort.

8.       Compassion is a warm hug.

9.       Friendship is a bright yellow rose.

10.   Truth is a new beginning.

11.   Charity is a bright blue sky.

12.   Delight is a gooey chocolate cookie.

13.   Despair is a black raven.

14.   Calm is a cold blanket.

15.   Wisdom is an old owl.

Sensory Experience- My 13th Birthday Party

See

The bright colors of the presents lined up in front of me

The big ice cream cake coming towards my table

Family members and a couple friends standing around me

Taste

Crisp ice tea and I sip it slowly

Crunchy part of my ice cream cake and all of its chocolaty goodness

Vanilla ice cream from on top of the cake and how it is so silky smooth

Hear

Singing and applauding of everyone around me

Giggles from my friends as they sing along

Tearing of paper as I open up my first one

Touch/Feel

Present that I hold in my hand, for the one I hold is a little heavy

The smooth and sleek paper that covers this one

The soft teddy bear as I pull it out of the paper

Smell

The burning of the candles on top of the cake as I get ready to blow them out

Of my grandmothers perfume as she hugs me and congratulates me

Of the new perfume I got from my next opened present

Extended Metaphors

If I were an Animal, I would be a black cat because I am full of mystery and wisdom just like the black cats that have come before us. Black cats to me are having a lot of wisdom and full of mystery. When I relate that back to myself I would have to say when it comes to me only being seventeen I am full of a lot of wisdom no matter what It be over and for someone my age is not supposed to have that much of wisdom. Then with everything I have been through I have also got a lot of mystery to me because of all the things that I have been through in my life.

If I were a song, I would be a rap song because you could sum up my life with it. In any rap song you listen to it sums up that singers life in just a few verses no matter if the song is sad, depressing, or even happy. My life and everything I have been through have made it to where my life would make an interesting rap song. It would be a song with a lot of emotion. This is what most rap people put into a song.

If I were a fragrance, I would be manly musk (that smelled good) because then I could smell myself all the time. When it comes to smelling good, I would rather use a manly scent because it defines me as a person because most people don’t find me to be a girly girl, which is ok with me. So I keep my scent on the manly side of things opposed to the girly side or I try to keep it somewhere in between depending on my day. A very manly fragrance is something that appeals to me more than anything no matter what it be from.

Symbolic Recipe

Recipe for the one and only Natasha

 

8 Cups of Wisdom

9 ½ Cups of Love

1 Cup of Funniness

3 Cups of reliability

 1 ½ Cups of Loyalty

2 ½ Cups of Helpfulness

¾ Cups of Fearlessness

3 ½ Cups of Creativeness

 4 Cups of perfectionism

6 Cups of Bluntness

7 Cups of Honesty

1 Cup of Sarcasm

½ Cup of Laziness

½ Cup if Pickiness

Dash of Friendliness

 

Step 1: First you add 8 Cups of Wisdom, 9 ½ Cups of Love, and 1 cup of Funniness to a small Mixing bowl. Stir together gently otherwise you will ruin their traits. Then add your 3 Cups of Reliability and 1 ½ Cups of Loyalty. Stir those into the mixture gently being careful not to be too harsh on them. Then set this mixture (known as Mixture 1) to the side.

Step 2: Add 2 ½ Cups of Helpfulness, ¾ Cups of Fearlessness, 6 Cups of Creativeness, and 4 Cups of Perfectionism to a larger mixing bowl. Be careful not to stir the mixture but to fold all the ingredients together in your mixing bowl.

Step 3: Add Mixture 1 to your bigger bowl, whisk it in fast so they mix together perfectly.

Step 4: Lastly, Add 6 Cups of Bluntness, 7 Cups of Honesty, and 1 Cup of Sarcasm together in your bigger bowl. Start mixing all these ingredients together by hand. While mixing add ½ Cup of Laziness, ½ Cup of Pickiness and a Dash of Friendliness.

Step 5: After mixing you will have come up with a person who will become a good friend, an amazing girlfriend, and a good person all together.

Step 5: Finally, it’s time to bake your mix at 325^oF for 35 minutes. Then pull it out and top it with 1 Cup of Funniness because there should never be a dull moment in life.

 

 

Personal Metaphors

If I were an Animal, I would be a black cat because I am full of mystery and wisdom just like the black cats that have come before us.
If I were a car, I would be a black 1967 Mustang Fastback because it shows I’m not afraid to look good and drive fast at all times.
If I were an article of clothing, I would be a bra because I am always there to help support other people.
If I were a day of the week, I would be a Wednesday because it reminds me that the week is halfway over.
If I were a food, I would be chicken leg because then I would be the best tasting of meat there was.
If I were a color, I would be the color red because I am very passionate about the things I do.
If I were a movie, I would be a scary movie because I have a sick twisted mind when it comes to the things I think about.
If I were a fragrance, I would be manly musk (that smelled good) because then I could smell myself all the time.
If I were a type of building I would be a skyscraper because then I would finally be taller than people.
If I were a plant, I would be an oak tree so that way I can provide people with the proper amount of shade and give the people that didn’t like me poison oak.
If I were a musical instrument, I would be an oboe because it is a double reed instrument meaning I am two sided (meaning that I have a masculine side and a somewhat feminine side).
If I were a geometric shape, I would be a octagon because there are many different sides to my personality.
If I was a piece of furniture, I would be a chair because a chair is a comfy place to sit in.
If I were a song, I would be a rap song because you could sum up my life with it.
If I were an appliance, I would be a freezer because I like things to be very cold around me.
If I were a television character, I would be a Sheldon (off of Big Bang Theory) because I would love to get on everyone’s nerves just by opening my mouth.
If I were a season of the year, I would be winter because it’s beautiful to see all the snow and the dead things around me.
If I were a natural phenomenon, I would be a sunrise because it sets the mood for a new day to start.
If I were a comic character, I would be Batman because then I would be rich and sexy at all times. ;)

If I were a word, I would be the word love because everyone has to experience it at least once in their life.

The Ultimate All-Purpose Excuse

For future info, this did not really happen, but it is a good story.
There was one day I didn’t do absolutely nothing because of the fact that I was hurting everywhere and there was a big storm getting ready to come in. well it started off as my dad asking me why I didn’t do anything for that day. I replied to him by saying because I was hurting, but apparently that was just an excuse opposed to being the real thing. The fight started off as my dad said well I do more than you do in one day so how can you be so tired and sore that you can’t even do your chores, and you need to get up off of your lazy butt and start doing them right now before I get really mad. Then there is me being the smart-elic I am said well what about the days you’re off work you’re always sitting down on your lazy butt watching TV and you hardly ever move from one spot, you would rather have people bring our food to you hand and foot opposed to you getting it yourself. Then with that dad really got upset, and stormed off out of the room. When he came back he only had a few words to say, which were do you have anything to say for yourself? I replied very calmly and said well of course I do because I don’t have to do this today, because I am sore. And that mess in this kitchen I didn’t do that, so I shouldn’t be the one to clean it up. I shouldn’t have to clean that up whenever I didn’t do that. So you or someone who actually made it should, not me. Then that was the end of that conversation between me and him for the day.

What's in a Name?

Well I guess I have to start with my name on this, so here it is, my full name is Natasha Carol Carpenter. Pretty much all parts of my name were handed down to me from the generations before me. So to start off I will start with my first name, the NAT part comes from my uncle Nathan on my mom’s side, and the ASHA part comes from one of my mom’s friends that she had after she got out of high school. CAROL comes from my grandma on my mother’s side, and my grandma got it from her grandma, so it’s one of those every other generation names. Then lastly CARPENTER come from my mother’s side again because it is our last names of course. To me my name does not truly have a very symbolic meaning besides the fact it was the name my mother changed my name to when she found out I was a girl instead of a boy. My name was supposed to be Jonathan Michael Carpenter, because my mother wanted a boy so bad opposed to a girl. I feel like my name somewhat suits me, but not very much. This with that being said I can honestly say I would have chosen a different name for myself, something more like Nariko Carol Carpenter. When it comes to my actual name though, it does set me off a little when people don’t say it right because like our biology teacher who says it wrong it is actually pronounced a different way than what he says it is. It does get aggravating at times when my own family members get it mixed up but I get used to it and just go with it. Our biology teacher is one of the only teachers in the school that can pronounce it wrong and get away with it. . .only because it’s not worth arguing over. To be honest it is sometimes hard to live with a name like mine because hardly anyone can spell it right, some teachers I have had, has spelled it wrong or just completely wrong (something that doesn’t even look like my name). For example a principle at Monett elementary spelled my name NOETOSHO…..like Neosho and Natasha Mixed together. It’s also hard to live with because some people can’t pronounce it right. I have learned to just ignore it and correct it when people mess it up.

Likes & Dislikes

Like:

1.   Tattoos that have a very good story behind them.
2.   The people that make my day by just smiling at me.
3.    Black cats
              i.   Black cats have always been very symbolic to me so I absolutely love them. They always bring me good luck.
4.    Books that have a lot of romance and action mixed together to make the perfect book.
     i.   One of those books includes Need by Carol Jones, and her series of books that go along with Need.
5.    The colors red and black.
        i.   I like these colors because they represent me and how much I’ve been through in my life thus far. Black representing all the dark times I’ve been through and the red representing the blood that I have shed through some of those times.
6.    The person that stole my heart when we first met, all those years ago.
7.    Driving
          i.   Who doesn’t love to drive, it makes you feel so free and wild when you get to go as fast as you want.
8.    Senior stuff!!
           i.   I like/love doing my senior stuff for school, makes me feel like I am a part of something bigger no matter what we do.
9.    Working on cars.
    i.   Working on cars is a real big hobby of mine that I like to do whenever I can.
10.  Senior Sweats
         i.   I absolutely love my senior sweats because they keep me warm when I get cold. Plus they are very comfortable.
11.  Chinese food
             i.   I could not live without Chinese food; it is like my heaven on earth. Just thinking about it makes my mouth water. Yummy!!
12.  Batman
             i.   There is nothing more to say than batman. He is one of my most beloved super heroes.
13.  Horror Movies
    i.   If they make me jump or think “oh my goodness! Is that even possible? How could that even happen?” makes me love them more.
14.  That friend I hardly ever see, but only get to see when I need him the most.
15.  The teacher that is making us do this awful assignment.
        i.   That teacher is one of the best teachers I have had through my high school career. No I’m not sucking up, but it is true. Its very hard to find a good teacher that is willing to help you or be there and help you with your problems.

Dislike:

1.    When people pronounce my name wrong
2.    When people cut in front of you while your drive, almost causing you to get into a wreck.
3.    The rumors that go around about everyone here at school
               i.   I mean really people, they get old and annoying.
4.    How some people treat their friends.
     i.   Friends should not be treated that way.
5.   How I can’t lift that much in weights
            i.   Even though it would be nice to lift a lot more than I do now
6.    How some people have no sense of humor when it comes to funny jokes.
7.    The computers are so slow in the mornings, therefore making it to were you can’t get no work done.
8.    People that don’t drive fast enough on the highway or back roads.
9.    My hair when I first get up in the mornings.
10. Blonde moments
           i.   Which seem to happen to me ALL THE TIME.
11. Drive through windows at a fast food place
          i.   They are supposed to be fast but they always take forever.
12.Small parking lots
           i.   There is just so much room a minivan can maneuver around in.
13.Homework that you actually have to do at home.
14.Black coffee
           i.   It has a bland taste, I would need to add creamer and 1 cup of sugar.
15.Bacteria
          i.   It is everywhere we look and if you think about it, it is really nasty :P